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Postpartum Health Journey – Week 2

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Taking a more holistic approach to my health this time around is proving to be helpful…feels more balanced to be honest. This week was good in some ways and definitely showed me areas of improvement in others (another reason why I like the four categories I picked – helps break things down a bit more).

General thoughts

A few things I forgot to share last week…

Measuring overall progress – In light of keeping it real, I am weighing myself about once a week/every two weeks right now, but my main focus from a postpartum body perspective is how my clothes fit. And more importantly, how I feel on a day-to-day basis. Do I feel strong? Am I exhausted? Do I feel depleted? Am I reacting more than responding?

Length of workouts – I shared last week that my plan right now is to do a mix of strength, cardio, and core rehabilitation workouts. In terms of length of each workout, right now I’m able to manage 20-45 minutes on a given day depending on what’s going on, if the baby is napping, if anyone is around to help, etc.

Vitamins/supplements – In terms of vitamins and supplements, I’m currently taking a prenatal vitamin, vitamin D, vitamin B12, iron, and a pre/probiotic.

Week 2 – Physical health journey

So this week was Friday-Thursday, and in that time, I squeezed in four workouts. Everything from Peloton rides (ranging from 30-45 minutes) to Peloton and Bodyfit by Amy* strength workouts. From a physical health perspective, it was a good week.

I will say that I’m taking it much easier on my core than I did with Kaiden. Vishnu really wants me to be careful (rightfully so) because he knows how all in I can be with my workouts, and he doesn’t want me to create permanent damage somehow.

*Bodyfit by Amy is an amazing and free YouTube channel with hundreds of workouts and challenges that an be done at home (and some with no equipment). I’ve been doing Amy’s workouts since I was pregnant with Kaiden, and I can’t recommend them enough. She has everything from prenatal to postnatal, HIIT, strength training, pilates, tabata, etc.

Week 2 – Nutritional health journey

My sweet tooth is a little out of control, so I’m currently working on reigning it in a bit by coming up with alternative ‘treats’ for when the craving hits. Will share more as I experiment and learn.

I’m also focusing on adding more protein to my meals and snacks. For example, I’ve been making a nut mix at home with pecans, almonds, walnuts, and a few chocolate chips. I figure that’s better than eating chocolate chips on their own!

And finally, definitely working on increasing my veggie intake. Step one – eating more salads for lunch!

Week 2 – Mental health journey

Still keeping up with therapy! Love my therapist so so much as well as the relationship we’re building.

I’m reading again and started with ‘The Midnight Library.’ Mainly squeezing in pages while I pump, but that’s better than mindlessly scrolling!

My parents are coming to help me this weekend since Vishnu’s on call and working 7a-4p+ both Saturday and Sunday. Woo hoo for living in Atlanta!

Week 2 – Social health journey

Last week, I talked about how I was going to try new ways to control my social media usage. Turns out I don’t need anything new. I just need to go back to my old rules. So from now on, I’m capping my time on IG to 100 minutes/day. After that, I delete the app from my phone. Hopefully this helps!

In terms of our social life, we have a white elephant get together this weekend with friends. Vishnu’s also going to a Hawk’s game with friends on Friday. And last weekend, we had friends over for dinner andK + V went to a Santa event. Given the fact that we have a newborn at home, I feel like this aspect of our life is on track. We don’t attend everything we’re invited to, but because we personally need friend time and want Kaiden to be out and about with new friends, we’re weighing our choices accordingly.

Well, that’s all I’ve got for this week! Wish me luck for week 3!

A Must Try Diaper Trick Using Aquaphor

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First and foremost, this post isn’t sponsored by Aquaphor. Although, if they saw how many tubs of their ointment we have, that might change!

Our love affair with Aquaphor began when Kaiden was just under a year old. Chicago winters are no joke, and this ointment was the only thing that kept him super moisturized. We still cover him in it post-bath. It’s his ‘cream!’

Given how much we loved it for Kaiden, Vishnu told me to use it religiously after having two bouts of horrible hives in 2019. And like K, it’s the only thing I use post-shower. Nothing else has come close to Aquaphor and how protected it keeps me skin. And fingers crossed, I haven’t had hives since October 2019!

So now for the diaper trick we use with Mila…

After M was born, Vishnu was all about protecting her from diaper rashes. With Kaiden, we started using Desitin pretty much right away because he was so prone to rashes, but with Mila we wanted to be more proactive.

So now, with every diaper change, we first spread a good amount of Aquaphor on the inside of her diaper before putting it on her. This has been a game changer!

First, we’re eight weeks in, and not only has she not had a diaper rash, but her bum is never red (and gf goes through A LOT of diapers!). Second, the layer of Aquaphor makes clean up a breeze because nothing sticks to her bum. I used to dread diaper changes with Kaiden, but with Mila we’re done in a few minutes, and I feel 100% certain that she’s cleaner than clean (also preventing any rashes or other issues).

A couple of notes:

  1. If you’re going to use Aquaphor on both your baby’s bum and body, I recommend having two separate tubs. Just in case!
  2. Costco sells Aquaphor ointment in a two pack for ~$20, which is so much cheaper than what you’ll find in other stores/Amazon. Vishnu made a trip the other day and came home with five 2 packs! Given 3 out of 4 people in our household use this, we go through tubs pretty quickly.

If your baby is still in diapers, I highly recommend trying this little trick out. Thank me later!

Postpartum Health Journey – Week 1

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Hello hello! I’m excited to share my postpartum health journey on here because these are the kinds of posts I wish someone had written when I had Kaiden.

So here’s the lowdown…these posts will be very personal to my journey based on my experience(s) and recovery. That doesn’t mean you can’t borrow ideas or follow along, but please do keep this in mind. Also, please remember it took nine months to grow your baby. We just can’t expect things to go back to where they were a few weeks after birth. Everything takes time. Something I’m reminding myself of often.

I’m going to be sharing the physical, nutritional, mental, and social aspects of my journey on here because I don’t think you’re truly healthy unless all of these are taken into account. I also need some accountability in some of these areas, so this will be a great way to do that.

Ok so let’s get into it…

My experience and recovery

So for anyone who doesn’t know, this was a repeat c-section delivery for me. I had an emergency c-section with my firstborn, and my husband I decided another c-section would be the best route given my last delivery.

The delivery itself was fine. By the time I got home three days later, I was going up and down stairs and was also fairly mobile. I honestly thought I was in the clear in terms of the worst being over with.

Then, a week and day later, I found myself back in the hospital for postpartum hemorrhaging. This was way harder on me than my delivery itself for many reasons. I won’t go into the details, but I’m thankful for the way things played out. My recovery after this was a little longer and still ongoing in ways. But I’m getting there. I’m mobile and able to be active and keep up with Kaiden, so I’m thankful for that!

Key takeaway – everyone’s experience is different. Don’t compare and GO SLOW. A few days, weeks, or months of rest and recovery aren’t that big of a deal in the long run. Better safe than sorry.

My health journey plan

I’ve had six whole weeks to think about my health journey plan and what I want to do to get back into the swing of things.

This may be the most anti climatic thing to say, but my plan is to keep things simple and go back to the basics. I don’t believe in diets. I’ve tried a few and they never work for me. I don’t believe in deprivation. I don’t believe in cutting out entire food groups or ingredients. None of these methods work. And now that I have little eyes watching me all the time, I want to make sure I’m a good role model for them.

So that said, I plan to exercise 4-5 times a week – a mix of cardio, strength training, and yoga/stretching. In terms of my diet (what I eat, not a specific plan), I plan to focus on the things I need to add in versus remove. That seems like a more sustainable and fun idea versus removing the things I truly love and enjoy. My mental health plan is to keep going with therapy and continuing with 360 degree self-care, meaning not just the indulgent things but other deeper things like creating boundaries, etc. Socially, I need to be more mindful of my time on IG, but this is also about who and how we’re filling our time. Now that we’re in GA, I want to see my friends and family but need to ensure it’s filling my cup and not taking away from it.

So that’s the plan in a nutshell…

Week 1 – Physical health journey

I AM SO SORE! As I sit here and type this out, my legs are so freaking sore! I haven’t felt this way since I started at my gym in 2019!

This week, I got in three solid workouts (this week is Monday-Thursday for the purposes of this blog post). I did a low impact Peloton ride, a postpartum core workout, a full body strength workout, and another Peloton bike ride. I plan to do a Body Fit by Amy strength workout today.

Vishnu felt like I was pushing it a little bit this week, but I felt pretty good except for the soreness. But I figure that’s expected no matter when I start. In terms of the bike rides, I’m not striving for any particular numbers. I just want to get through the workout at my own pace. And with the strength ones, I thought I’d be able to pick right back up where I left off at 37 weeks, but no dice. I used mostly 8 and 10 pound weights for my strength workout on Tuesday, and it was still really hard for me. Baby steps!

Week 1 – Nutritional health journey

So I did great on Monday and Tuesday – lots of veggies were consumed, and I drank a ton of water. Then on Wednesday, I ate a ton of carbs (more than usual) and was ravenous most of the day.

Here’s the thing though – when you’re breastfeeding and/or pumping (I’m pumping), you burn through a lot of calories. For example, I pump 6 times a day and usually have an output of about 6-8 ounces each time. You burn an average of 20 calories for every ounce produced, so if you do the math, that’s roughly 720 calories a day. That’s a lot! And the way this whole thing works is that you have to eat to keep up your supply.

So while, I want to be more mindful in this area, I recognize I just need to listen to my body and let it do it’s thing on some days while still try to adhere to the let’s add in some good stuff plan.

That said, the one thing I need to be better about is meal/snack prepping. We have all the goods ready to go, but I just need to prep little baggies of nuts and chop up veggies the night before or make a batch of hard boiled eggs on Sunday. I know from experience that these small actions add up…just need to motivate myself to do it.

Week 1 – Mental health journey

I had a therapy appointment yesterday…a must in my mind! I love my therapist and really feel like she’s a good fit for me. She’s so empathetic yet knows the exact questions to ask to get me to see things different. Love our time together.

My mom’s also be over a ton to help out, which does wonders for my mental health. I’m so thankful they live close by, know how to handle Kaiden (a big part of the equation), and are able and free to help us. I honestly don’t think I’d be standing without her or Vishnu.

Speaking of Vishnu, we’re doing so much better communicating this time around. He’s also around more, which is just amazing on so many levels. Mostly because he gets to experience parenting in a more hands on way with both K and M. And he’s able to take a lot of things off my plate, which is always good for my mental health!

Other than that, I’m doing pretty good from this perspective, much better than I was with Kaiden. I think the weather also has something to do with it. Even though it’s starting to get chilly, the sunshine does wonders for your mind. The new variant does have my head spinning as does the most recent school shooting. But I’m trying to focus on the steps I can take versus everything that’s wrong with our country.

Week 1 – Social health journey

Let’s not talk about my IG usage. Just kidding…I said I wanted accountability, and the first step is transparency. I need to be more mindful of my usage. Period. I have no reason to be on as much as I am, and I have a few ideas I need to test out for how to stay off more than I am on that I will share next week after putting in place. More to come…stay tuned!

In terms of social relationships, I think I’m doing pretty good. We’ve obviously had to say no to a lot because of Mila and Covid and all the viruses that are spreading like wildfire right now. But I also realize there are different ways of keeping in touch and hanging out – Kaiden and I went out to lunch with a friend and her son, I talked to another friend on the phone for a bit and just caught up, another friend that I hadn’t seen in a while came over and hung out, and some other friends came over on a weekday morning so we could just talk and hang without kids interrupting every five seconds.

The one thing that does ease my mind is that everyone has been great about wearing masks when they come over. Not that I doubted our family/friends, but that does put my mind at ease a little. Also, our people have a lot of common sense and know to stay home if they’re sick or have been recently.

We have some more fun things coming up over the next few weeks, and yet again, I’m just so thankful to be able to experience the holidays with all of our loved ones this year!

That’s week one in a nutshell. These are all changes I want to keep up in the long term, so slow and steady is my motto!

Day in the Life – 3.5 weeks

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We are 3.5 weeks into life with Ms. Mila, and things are…well, they’re still a little all over the place. We have no routine in place yet, but experience reassures me that we’ll get there in a few months. Until then, I’m just trying to enjoy the newborn phase – the cuddles, the cute random faces, etc.

That being said, I wanted to document a day in the life type post so I don’t forget the beautiful chaos of this time.

So here was how my day unfolded on November 11, 2021…

4:45 am – I wake up to feed Mila. Vishnu took the last two feeds, which was so sweet of him, but I told him not to do that because this meant I hadn’t pumped in like 7 hours. No bueno!

5:25-6:10 am – Power pumping session. Went too long between sessions. Got a lot of milk but don’t want to make this a habit.

6:30 am – Make and eat breakfast (protein shake) in peace – no kids/husband needing me. Just me, the dark, and some silence.

7:15-8:30 am – Kaiden wakes up, eats breakfast, and eventually, we’re out the door for school. While I’m handling K, Vishnu is feeding Mila and eventually puts her back down. Teamwork makes the dream work!

8:30-9:00 – I drop K off at school, make a pit stop at CVS, and also at Dunkin for some coffee per VIshnu’s request. He was super tired this morning.

9:20-9:50 – Time to pump again. Wish I could’ve gotten to this sooner, but ahh…that’s life! I had to start and stop a couple of times because Mila was a little unsettled and fussy. Finally got it done…that’s what matters, right?

9:50 am – 12:00 pm- Mila starts stirring. I go get her and bring her downstairs to eat. Apparently, she’s more interested in sleeping in my arms than eating! Yes, this went on for over two hours! I just let her sleep. Eventually, I put her down in her room…until the next feed that’s probably in 30 minutes. Haha!

12:00-12:20 pm – I heat up leftovers from when my mom was here earlier in the week and eat those quickly (you never know when you’re sleeping baby will wake up wailing!). So good and so thankful I had that food ready to go!

12:45 pm – Time to pump again. Praying Mila doesn’t wake up from her nap until I’m done!

Timing is a little hazy after this point, but here’s a quick rundown of what happened next…

  • Mila wakes up and I feed her.
  • My mom comes over – we give Mila a bath, I get to take shower…
  • I pump yet again.
  • My dad and I pick Kaiden up from school and take him to PT.
  • We eat dinner when we get home (mom made her famous green enchiladas!).
  • Vishnu eats and then gives K a bath, my mom feeds Mila, and I pump.
  • Kids are down, mom and dad go home, I pack K’s lunch, wash bottles, clean up in the kitchen, finish up this post…
  • …and then…you guessed it…I pump…

AND THE CYCLE REPEATS ITSELF!

Not an exciting day by any means, but one I want to remember for sure. I just read somewhere that ‘time is a thief…’ ain’t that the truth!

Happy Friday! Hope y’all have a great weekend.

Weekend Recap – Diwali, Netflix, and Family Pics

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First and foremost, I’m really really hoping to bring back old school blogging on this space. I used to share here so frequently with updates, life happenings, more topical posts, etc. But with how much blogging has changed over the years, I didn’t think that was really what people wanted to read. Welllll…I’ve decided that if people don’t want to read those kinds of posts, they won’t click over. If I want to keep MIS the blog alive, I need to write about the things that interest me.

With that, here’s a little rundown of our weekend…

Friday

Friday was Vishnu’s last day of paternity leave. Oh man! I have so many emotions about this. I told him I wish he got 16 weeks like me and made him laugh. As much as he’s enjoyed being home for the past few weeks, I think he’s really looking forward to going back and using his brain in a different way.

I wish I could say we did something special to celebrate his time at home and return to work, but we didn’t. With Mila on an every 2.5-3 hour feeding schedule, time just flies by. It’s like we go from 7 am to 12 pm in a matter of minutes.

While we didn’t celebrate during the day, we did go to my parents’ house for a family Diwali dinner on Friday night. It was so much fun hanging out with everyone, catching up, and eating some delicious food. My mom was the hostess with the mostess – her decor was beautiful and so welcoming. We ended our time there by reading some of Kaiden’s favorite Diwali books (the adults loved this too!).

When we got home, Vishnu put Mila down and then we watched Sex Education on Netflix (such a great show by the way) while I pumped.

Saturday

Saturday was a slow day overall. We ‘slept in’ until about 8/9 am because Kaiden spent the night at my parents’ house, so we could go back to sleep after Mila’s morning feed. Felt so good! But I missed my older guy a lot.

Again, the day passed by in 3 hour increments with some Sex Ed. mixed in here and there along with a few pumping sessions. Before we knew it, my parents were dropping K back off because we had a family photo session in the morning.

Vishnu and I finished Sex Ed. that night. Good news…season 4 is coming soon…yay!

Sunday

Sunday morning was probably the most hectic of all. Convincing Kaiden to put his sweater on took 30 minutes! Then I had to get ready – iron my dress, straighten my hair, and put on my makeup. Thankfully, we were all ready by 10 am which is when our photographer arrived.

Don’t let this picture fool you! Was literally sweating during our photo session…and was just a little frazzled!

The session itself was so much fun! Kaiden kept everyone on their toes with his silly expressions and movements, but I’m positive we got a few frame worthy shots!

The rest of the day involved coloring and some time outside (66 degrees!).

A few notes

Taking care of one kid versus two is much much easier (duh!), but you don’t realize how much easier until your parents take one off your hands for a night. I missed Kaiden so much…he keeps things interesting around here and can be a bundle of fun (90% of the time). But he had a really fun time with my parents. In fact, he didn’t want to come home at all. If we didn’t have pictures, I would’ve let him stay another night.

Sleep is critical. Always. But especially when you have young kids. The irony here is that when you have young kids, sleep is hard to come by. I definitely need to find a way to squeeze in a couple of more hours because 4-5 hours of broken sleep a night isn’t cutting it.

Most people may already know this, but it took me by surprise so I’m sharing – if you’re seeing a therapist and you end up rehashing a lot of what’s been going on for you lately, those emotions will all be front and center all day. I had a session last Thursday and felt off the rest of the day emotionally. I think it’s because we talked at length about my second hospital stay, overall emotional state, etc. Also, while I believe in the power of acknowledging and validating, I don’t always hear those things from many people in my life. So to hear my therapist A/V me a ton, it just meant so much.

Well, that’s all I have for today! Hope y’all had a great weekend.

Mila’s Birth Story

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Mighty Mila’s (that’s my nickname for her) birth story isn’t as crazy as her big brother’s. In fact, the only thing that had me on edge was if she decided to come early and what that would mean in terms of her delivery. Thankfully, she didn’t!

In terms of her fairly predictable birth story, here’s how it all went down…

On Sunday night, my parents came over (they were staying the week at our place to take care of Kaiden) and brought dinner. After a full Gujarati meal, I headed upstairs to look at my hospital bag one more time and ensure I wasn’t forgetting anything. Turns out, I didn’t use half of what I brought!

After doing a few more things to prepare for the big day, Vishnu and I went to bed. We had to be at the hospital by 6:30 am since my c-section time was set for 9:00 am. I was up at 5:00 to shower and get ready. I couldn’t eat anything after 11 pm the night before, so I didn’t have to think about breakfast (although I wanted to eat so bad!). Vishnu grabbed a coffee protein shake, and we headed off to the hospital.

Once we got to the hospital, we checked in at the front desk and headed to the triage area where I changed out of my clothes and into a gown. We didn’t have to wait long until our team of nurses and doctors came to check in on us and get the ball rolling. I had an IV put in, met with our anesthesiologist, and was walked through how the next couple of hours would go.

It was soon time to head to the OR. I went in first and had my spinal tap. They laid me down pretty quickly and the bottom half of my body went numb. The room got very busy with various nurses and assistants coming in to prep everything. Once my doctor arrived, things started moving fairly quickly. Vishnu was allowed back, and pretty soon, I could start to feel some pressure in my abdomen area. Nothing painful, just tugs and pulls here and there.

Let me back up, just so I cover my emotional state. Once they put the curtain up, things became very real for me. I started crying immediately and couldn’t stop. Vishnu was talking to me the whole time and really made me feel better and more calm. The tears didn’t stop flowing though. Not quite sure what made me cry, but I think it was just knowing we would be meeting our baby girl very soon and that I would no longer be pregnant ever again.

Anyways, once the tugs and pulls started, it was just a matter of time before I could literally feel the doctor pull Mila out of my body. It was the most incredible feeling ever! They quickly showed her to us over the curtain and then took her to get clean and measured, etc. I didn’t get the best look but was just so happy to hear her cry.

Vishnu got to see her first, and when he came back, I was like, “How is she?!” He told me she’s my mini me and looks exactly like me. Woo hoo!

A nurse brought her over to us soon thereafter, and again, I couldn’t stop crying! She was so alert and sweet.

The doctor continued to stitch me up, and Vishnu and Mila headed back to the triage room.

Once I joined them in triage, I was able to hold Mila and feed her some colostrum, do skin to skin, etc.

In some ways, this was the birth experience I never got with Kaiden. With him, it was chaotic from the start, and I honestly don’t remember much aside from feeling very cold in the OR and obviously seeing him for the first time.

I’ve shared many times that Ms. Mila is the fourth and final addition to our little family. Vishnu and I made the decision a while back that we would stop at two kids, and I have to say, she is THE perfect addition. She’s absolutely perfect and adorable and lovable and eatable! I love all the faces she makes, her chill personality (so far!), how she loves to sleep..seriously though, gf would sleep all day if we let her, how strong she is already, and so much more.

I honestly never cared if we had a boy or a girl next and would’ve been happy either way, but I will say, it’s fun thinking about all the things Mila and I will hopefully get to do together as she gets older. And most of all, I’m so excited to see how her and Kaiden’s dynamic evolves. Big bro definitely adores his little sister and is always looking for her and wanting to kiss her feet! It’s the sweetest.

Vishnu and I are extremely tired, but we’re also very aware of how blessed and lucky we are to call these two beings our children. This party of four is ready for the ride of a lifetime!

Weekend Recap – The One Before Baby Girl

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This was our last weekend as a family of three! It’s hard to believe she’ll be here so so soon (starting this post on Saturday night). I wanted to document this time because I’m sure I’ll look back in the near future and want to recall some memories.

In some ways, this was the exact weekend we wanted/needed. And in other ways, it wasn’t what I imagined it would be.

FRIDAY

Friday was mine and Vishnu’s last day of vacay. We dropped Kaiden off to school in the morning and headed to the hospital for my Covid test…a pretty simple process. Vishnu dropped me off at home afterwards and headed out for more errands (Costco run, gas, car wash). And I sat my butt on the couch and watched Baby Sitter’s Club on Netflix (season 2 was just released!).

Once VIshnu was home, we ate lunch and headed to our final doctor’s appointment. The appointment went well overall. We had an ultrasound done (love this part!) and a stress-test, which took forever. Apparently, baby girl was moving a ton so that kept messing up a part of the results. We were there for 2 hours!

Once home, I reparked my butt on the couch and watched another BSC episode. Before I knew it, it was time to go get Kaiden (which Vishnu did because at this point, I’m not driving or going anywhere I don’t absolutely have to).

Then…it was play (mostly draw and color/run around), dinner (I made a pineapple, tofu, coconut rice dish. Kaiden ate rice and small bites of everything else), bath, PT exercises, and bed.

Vishnu and I settled in on the couch (yet again) and watched two episodes of Sex Education (on Netflix). Loving this show so far!

SATURDAY

Saturday morning started off fun, with Kaiden letting me lay in his bed for about an hour while he played. This was much needed because mama has not been sleeping that well at night.

We then hit a rough patch or two with Kaiden and some frustrations over what seemed like small things to me at least. But I kept my cool and we rode that wave relatively quickly.

We then ate breakfast and let Kaiden watch a bit of TV which Vishnu and I adulted over some health insurance stuff! Ha!

The next couple of hours were spent running around (Kaiden…not me!), making some snacks for K for next week, and setting up a few more things around the house before baby girl arrives!

Our after lunch plans were to get some custard at a local place, but I was so tired and pretty much couldn’t get off the couch. Kaiden and Vishnu both told me it’s ok and that we could get custard tomorrow (Sunday). Love my boys.

Kaiden then watched Moana while I napped on the couch next to him. This is where things didn’t go the way we planned. This was supposed to be a family movie we watched together. I just couldn’t keep my eyes open. Exhausted doesn’t even begin to describe how I felt! Luckily my little guy was very forgiving and didn’t mind watching on his own.

To make it up to him, we spent the next hour or so learning how to draw Moana from a YouTube video. I have to say, I’m not a super artistic person, but I really enjoy drawing and coloring, especially with Kaiden. It’s kind of our thing now!

I quickly pulled together a lunchbox dinner for K while Vishnu went to grab some food for the two of us. And of course, we listened to Moana songs while we ate!

Then came bath and PT exercise time. Not my finest moment to be honest. Kaiden is great at paying attention when he wants, but then when it comes to something he needs to do, he definitely zones out and goofs off (re: during his PT exercises). He knows that if he doesn’t do these every day he’ll have to wear special boots, which none of us want for him. We try to make it fun with songs and timers and whatever else we can, but sometimes it’s just so painful (for him and us). So yesterday, I just kind of lost it. I did some repair before bed, but this kid really knows how to push my obviously big buttons. We’re working on it!

After putting Kaiden to bed, I took a quick shower, Vishnu finished up Squid Games, and then the two of us settled in to finish off season one of Sex Education. It’s so good, y’all!

SUNDAY

Our last day before baby girl arrives! Sunday started a little later than normal for me because Vishnu and K let me sleep in a little. Then Kaiden got in bed with me to snuggle (never happens!) and was just so sweet. Brought tears to my eyes (and made me feel better about the night before).

We then came downstairs, ate breakfast, and got some things done around the house while Kaiden played and ran around. Tried my best to appreciate this because I know things are about to be verrrrry different for a while. Reminding myself that nothing lasts forever…enjoy it while it lasts.

The rest of the day included pumpkin carving (styrafoam from Target!), piano lessons (Kaiden loved his first lesson and his teacher), custard (finally!), and more cuddles with our soon to be big bro!

My parents are staying with Kaiden this week, since we’ll probably be at the hospital until Wednesday or Thursday. So thankful for them!

Also, I may have teared up quite a bit saying goodnight to Kaiden. So much so that even he teared up a little (not knowing why). So many emotions! So excited for him to meet his baby!

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