Thoughts Lately: A Bit Deeper Than Usual

I’m going to go a little deep with today’s post. Just a fair warning…

About halfway through my run the other day, I found myself closing down my playlist. As I started running sans music, I was left with just my thoughts.

And my thoughts these days all lead to the same conclusion – life isn’t fair.

My immediate family and close friends are fine but it just seems that lately lots of people I know or know of (and let’s be honest, complete strangers I read about on the internet) are being thrown curveballs that can’t be avoided, controlled, or changed. Things that are truly life altering.

I’ve had many conversations with Vishnu, my mom, my sister, and my close friends about why some people have to experience such sad circumstances. I know we all have burdens and problems we carry in life, but something that still puzzles me is why certain people have to carry such a heavy load. And again, a load they have no control over.

And the only explanation I can come up with is sometimes life isn’t fair. However, we have to keep on keeping on. Because as we all know, life does go on. And really, what’s the alternative?

From the way I see it, there is no alternative. The only thing we can do is appreciate what we have right now, knowing full well that anything can happen tomorrow. As terrifying as it is to know that nothing is permanent, it’s also beautiful because knowing this gives us the freedom to focus on the important stuff.

These feelings usually come and go for me. I’ll get lost in my thoughts for days, only to reemerge and operate as usual. But this time it’s different. I don’t want to know all of this and still focus on the things that don’t matter. The things that if taken away tomorrow would only leave a temporary void in my life.

I want to practice what I preach. So from now on, I’m going to work really really hard to be grateful for my todays (not just say or think grateful thoughts but act in ways that represent the sentiment) and to focus on the things that if taken away tomorrow would leave a permanent void in my life.  No more sweating the small stuff.***

Life may not be fair, but it is beautiful, and I’m going to soak up as much beauty as I can.

[End deep thoughts.]

***Of course, I’m human and sometimes stupid things will bother me. My point is that I’m going to try my best not to let those thing have such an impact (like they have in the past).

LAST WEEK’S NOTABLE MEALS {4}

Last week was a great food week.  You know, one of those where everything tastes the way you want.  Good for me and for Vishnu!

Chocolate chip zucchini bread

choc chip bread

I adapted Gina’s recipe and used 1/2 cup applesauce and 1/2 cup pumpkin puree.  Delicious!

Breakfast tacos

Veggie tacos
These tacos were so good – corn & wheat tortillas, refried black beans, scrambled eggs, cheddar cheese, jalapeno, and salsa.  

Veggie and tofu stir-fry with a peanut citrus sauce

Trader Joe's 006 
I sautéed onions, garlic, carrots, zucchini, mushrooms, broccoli slaw, and tofu in a little bit of olive oil and added salt, pepper, and TJs 21 salute seasoning.  I made the sauce by combining PB (microwave for 20 seconds), soy sauce, lemon juice, and a little bit of water.  YUM!

Three bean veggie chili

Trader Joe's 008
I don’t have a recipe for this (oops!).  It’s a combination of onions, mushrooms, carrots, garlic, diced tomatoes, tomato paste, black/garbanzo/kidney beans, cumin, chili powder, cayenne, salt, and pepper.  I also added two “secret” ingredients – PB and cocoa.  I’ll document the exact amounts of each ingredient the next time around.

Baked egg chili

egg in chili 
Davida’s recipe could not have come at a better time!  I (over) baked four eggs in a pan full of chili and can now say that if you haven’t tried this, you really should!  Chili + egg is a delicious/filling combination. 

Well, that was our week in home cooked food! 

Tell me – what did you make last week? Recipe links welcome!

‘ING’ Survey

I’m going to take a leaf out of Jen’s book (blog!) today and complete a fun ‘ing’ survey.  Feel free to play along in the comments or even on your own blog!  I’d love to read your answers to a few or all of these.

Making: plans with my sister about what we’re going to do when she and her boyfriend visit us at the end of December!

Cooking: more Indian food!  I have two dishes planned for this week.

Drinking: lots of unsweetened tea from Publix.  It’s our favorite!

Reading: Daring Greatly by Brene Brown.  Almost done!

Wanting: jeans that fit me perfectly.  The quest continues…

Looking: forward to spending time with my sister next week and being in my friend Monica’s wedding!!!

Playing: phone tag with a lot of people.

Wasting: time thinking about what I’m wasting…haha!

Sewing: I don’t sew!

Wishing: everyone strength, love and light. It was Diwali last week, so consider this my belated Diwali wish!

Enjoying: Miami’s fabulous weather – love this time of year here!

Waiting: for the World Series to be over so that I can watch New Girl and The Mindy Project again.

Liking: the fact that Vishnu’s schedule is not filled with studying!  More time for me!

Wondering: what our next city will be.  New city = new adventure!

Loving: that my company is giving us 12 days off at the end of the year so that we don’t have to use our own PTO (paid time off)!!! 

Hoping: my sister likes what I got her for her birthday!

Marveling: at all the beautiful sunrises and sunsets we’ve seen over the past few weeks.

Needing: about one more hour of sleep every night.  Working on it!

Smelling: lavender scented candles.  My favorite!

Wearing: dresses and shorts…anything else will cause overheating.

Following: lots of new blogs, Facebook pages, and Instagram accounts!

Noticing: how changing my perspective/attitude has a huge impact on pretty much everything (finally putting into practice what I’ve conceptually known forever).

Knowing: that everything happens for a reason.

Thinking: about how precious life really is (both a beautiful and slightly terrifying thought).

Feeling: a little nervous about my half marathon training…that starts today!

Bookmarking: slow cooker recipes.  VIshnu found a great deal for one this weekend, so we are now the proud owners of a crock pot!

Opening: myself up to new ways of thinking and doing things.

Giggling: at almost everything The Fat Jewish posts on Instagram!

HAPPY MONDAY!